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I could feel something wasn't quite right. You were talking to me less and less all over again. But I was afraid to say anything because I didn't want to push you away. And now here it's happening. Even after you promised you wouldn't just suddenly stop talking to me again. I don't know what to believe when you do this. It's not a game. It's not funny. And I don't like it.

This is me. This is who I am. I'm sensitive and emotional. And I'm gullible. And I love you, simply and grandly. And why? Why do I still after being let down so many times? Because I remember when I left and I was driving away I told myself that no matter what happened I needed to remember what I felt. The confidence I had in us. The happiness and magic that was between us. And I can still close my eyes and feel every little thing. I never wanted to give that up. And it hurts because I think you've forgotten. Like in the end those little things weren't enough to give you confidence in us. Like it meant so much more to me. Why else would you keep leaving me over and over and over.