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I could feel something wasn't quite right. You were talking to me less and less all over again. But I was afraid to say anything because I didn't want to push you away. And now here it's happening. Even after you promised you wouldn't just suddenly stop talking to me again. I don't know what to believe when you do this. It's not a game. It's not funny. And I don't like it.

This is me. This is who I am. I'm sensitive and emotional. And I'm gullible. And I love you, simply and grandly. And why? Why do I still after being let down so many times? Because I remember when I left and I was driving away I told myself that no matter what happened I needed to remember what I felt. The confidence I had in us. The happiness and magic that was between us. And I can still close my eyes and feel every little thing. I never wanted to give that up. And it hurts because I think you've forgotten. Like in the end those little things weren't enough to give you confidence in us. Like it meant so much more to me. Why else would you keep leaving me over and over and over.

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He said "I promise I will come for you."
She said "I promise I will wait."
He said "I'm sorry I never came for you."
She said "Don't say never. You're just late."
He said "Maybe you are right. I'll come another time."
She said "I know you will. I trust you."
Then he stopped emailing me. So I'm a little irritated.

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Oh, hello! Are you seeing this? It's a blog written by me. My own little slice of the internet. Don't I feel so empowered!? I have the ability to reach thousands of people through my words now. I could make such a difference in someone's life just by being myself. Really though, that sounds like a lot of effort. Mostly this is just to make myself feel better. It can make you feel however you'd like. But if it's negative, I am not being held responsible.

Anyway, enough about you. I'm just going to pretend I'm all by myself and this isn't being seen. Let's be honest, it's not. You're not reading this right now. And if you are you're probably me.

I've yet to figure out what my main focus in this blog will be. Maybe I'll treat it like a diary and just write about my daily life. Or maybe I'll write about my views concerning politics and controversial social issues. OR maybe I'll dabble at short-stories. However, if I know myself (I do), I'll end up writing about a plethora of topics that don't fit into any main idea. And every entry will be spaced out randomly over spans of weeks and months. Eventually I'll forget about it and vanish altogether! Ooo, something distracting...